My good friend Andrea sent me something a while ago that I hadn't read until just last night... God works in mysterious ways, i'm telling you. Here's what she sent me:

Love or Infatuation?
Infatuation is a fleeting desire- one set of glands calling to another. It is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about the relationship that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time. It is a quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It gives you strength and grows beyond you to holster your beloved. You are warmed by her presence, even when she is away. Miles do not separate you. But near or far, you know she is yours and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing her."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship that makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When she's away, you wonder if she's being unfaithful. Sometimes you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. She feels your trust, and it makes her even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you better than you were before.

I can't describe how perfectly this fits into my life right now, nor can I begin to tell you the train of thought it has started in my head. I've had to ask a lof of questions, and I've found few answers.

I've just spent the last two hours working on my legal brief for Hunter's government class. I'm actually very proud of it... eight pages of blood, sweat, and tears! If you're interested in seeing it, email me... the supreme court case on which my brief has been composed is the case of "The State of New Jersey v. T.L.O."

ahh, five days until I'm 18. The wait is excruciating! I thihnk there's a game Friday night, so I won't be doing anything crazy then, but I'm pretty sure Saturday night is going to be off the hook... my older brother (27) wants to get a couple hookers and rent a pole to put in the house. Something tells me the parents won't be down for that, but we'll try it anyways. Classes again tomorrow... ugh... but hey, at least I get to see my friends again.

I've been thinking about getting a membership at a gym, probably 24 Hour Fitness or Oakwood, as a birthday gift for myself. I guess I'll look more into that tomorrow, go visit the 24hr in Walnut Creek and go check out Oakwood.

As for now, it's time to get cracking on my homework so peace.